Date: 2006-10-08 19:37 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

Tomorrow I start work again, after a 1.5 years off. I'm really nervous. I hope I can do this. I have to do this. This is it!

I'm trying to take the news of my big brother and his surgery in stride. But there may be no striding on this. Losing an entire lung is a 50-50 proposition. And from the research I've done, he has only a 17% chance of an extra 5 years. He's so young! He's only 18 months older than I am! It's not scheduled until Wed. 

I am ready to move and be on my own again. It's not that Joe is underfoot - he's not, he's avoiding me - I just need to be by myself. And he hurts my feelings so casually. I don't say anything about it, most of the time, unless it a big hurt. 

So that's all, good and bad.

Date: 2006-09-19 13:03 Subject: A Yucked Up Day Security: Public Mood: angry

Started out as a good day. Now it's only 1 :00 and I am not doing so great. The duplex where I live has sold so there's all kinds of people in and out, invading my space. Some bitch from chld enforcement called and threatened to put me in jail. Sorry, I can't work. So they'll put me in jail, instead? How utterly fucking reasonable that is!

I hate bipolar!

Date: 2006-09-14 09:52 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

In honor of former Texas Govenor Ann Richards who passed away today.

"George Bush wasn't born with a silver spoon in his mouth - he was born with a silver foot in his mouth".

Loved Ann Richards. Texas politics is poorer without her.

Date: 2006-08-24 08:45 Subject: Repitlian Invasion Security: Public

It's my opinion that anything reptilian and human should not live together, specifically, in MY house.

Reptiles seriously freak me out anytime I see them, but in my house?! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH

In the past week, there have been 3 salamanders - one in the kitchen sink - it got disposaled! and one snake on my patio.

This is too much. Called the property management, said they've got to get rid of these things ASAP!

Shudder twitch twitch

Date: 2006-08-16 19:25 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: calm Music: Clannad; Harry's game

Not doing so bad w/ the stopping smoking. Still have it at about 9 cigs or less. It's fucking hard! Not coughing so much and breathing better; that's nice.

Didn't get the job at the university but it was full time. SW says parttime would be much better. So maybe that's a good thing.

I don't know how Joe manages to post so much on his LJ! ;)

It's so hot it makes you sick just to go outside. 107 today. Bleech. Maybe not taking classes is a good time right now, too. Can't imagine tryingto get across campus in this heat.

Date: 2006-08-11 20:41 Subject: Ranting and Maybe Some Raving Security: Public Mood: pissed off

I LIKE to smoke. I've been smoking a long time. I grew up around smokers. Everybody smoked. I don't care about it being politically incorrect, either. I've quit three times in uh, a lot of years. Both times I was pregnant and once when I lived with someone who was allergic to it.

Now I've got pneumonia again, for the fourth August in a row. Got to the doc earlier this year before it got horrendous (I have had my fill of doctors this year.) I had a chest xray. And well, DAMN! What did they see? They big scary horrible E...emphasema. That's not even how you spell it. I don't even know how to spell it. I don't know why I'm surprised, I guess I thought my magic armor would protect me. Hahahahahaha. The jokes on me.

So I have to quit smoking. Goddamnit, I feel like I have had to give up many things that I found pleasure with and now it's smoking. Just pisses me off in a big time way.

More honestly, I've felt this coming. I pretty much had the feeling that this was coming. I've felt something wasn't right so I guess this is it. So, quitting will buy me a few more years and I'll probably end up with lung cancer anyway.

Date: 2006-08-04 09:07 Subject: Just Joined Security: Public Mood: contemplative

I wanted to start keeping a journal (debated b/t online and hardcopy) while my son is on deployment to the Middle East. Poking around LJ, I found other interests that I've added.

So that's it for now.